WHAT A WORLD!
That what I kept on doing, checking here and there like someone insane, in fact speaking to myself . My heart so filled with my thought that I couldnot hear the whispering of the wind, those whispers that always bring the thought of nature to me. I journeyed the day in sorrow, in pain, anxiety but smiling and laughing with all, as I moved on, I said in my heart ” oh! what a fake you are”. I continued with my thought” I have lost everything, not getting things right anymore, nothing seems well with me “.
There was no one to talk to, no one to share my burdens with. Every one claimed busy, they believed I was alright, when I try to explain they come into conclusions saying I was the cause. Well I got it, that what have ever came to me. No love, no joy from others, I went through the day activities with the feeling of pain. No one seems to care, no one seems to what to listen. No one seems to know what is going on within me or even what to know. They all believed I was OK since am smiling, laughing and doing all what they want me to do.
Something I know but they don’t know is that am dying inside, gradually, I am. I seemed for help no one rendered, they saw maturity but didnot see the dying child within that needs help. They were even surprised at my asking for help. Hmm! I sighed lost in my thoughts as u continue to walk.
I felt tired of everything and everyone, I needed peace, all hope lost, yeah! the world was upon me. The weight was within me. Then it continues PEACE!, PEACE!!, PEACE!!! suddenly it came, that peace came running towards me, on the high way, it came in full speed, it was a car, stepped forward, I kept moving, faster! this time around, yes this is the peace I needed from all, yes! peace it came smiling at me, yes I saw the peace running and I moving fast to meet it, almost!, I kept on thinking…………………….
Then the thought came your generation are waiting for their Savior…….. You promised to help, then I said no, other people will be raised to help them.
Then I continue in my walk towards blissful peace…………
John 16:33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.
No matter what you as a man is passing through keep on, trust and hope in the Lord. Donot think you can find peace or trust in the world or even in death.
This is also a medium to give hopes to those that are depressed and to those around, talk to people to know what is going on within them.
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