I think about you everyday
But for some reason today is heavier than most
Are you maybe thinking about me too?
I miss you so much it hurts
I wish I had more pictures of you; more pictures of us
Still, I know if I had all the pictures in the world, it still won’t compare to having you close
I wish the memories did not seem so fleeting too
I’m scared of forgetting you even though I know I could never
Still, as much as I want the memories forever, I can only hold on to them for as long as time permits
Are you at peace?
I don’t want you troubled because my heart is still grieving
You know I’m trying really hard to be myself again
And I know you keep asking God to strengthen me
But the process is difficult, so, be patient with me
I promise to fight till I can think about you and not be overwhelmed by sadness….
Till I can think about you and not feel guilty about “moving on”
I love you.
Forever, R. For life